Today was the day we got our results back from my egg retrieval. I was thankful with the six eggs that were retrieved and hopeful for that we were going to have an awesome number after the 24 hours.
My partner was super anxious to find out before the doctor even called us. We called the office at 9:30 am our doctor had just walked in and said she will call us in a few. When she called she said that we only had two eggs and that the other four didn’t make it (I guess they weren’t mature enough). She went on to say that I should consider trying for another cycle to get more eggs because of the low count. The eggs were fertilized from us using a process called ICSI (I will explain further in Day 20 Embryo Results). Now they will sit for 5-6 days to see if they grow in to a embryo. The chances are low since we only have two but thinking about another IVF cycle is not on my mind.
To me I just finished the process and it wasn’t even 24 hours. To get my mind back on starting within a week was not even a thought. The huge amount of money that was spent out of pocket $32,000+, the emotional, physical and the thoughts of injections again was not an option. At least for now! I am not sure when or if I would do another cycle if the eggs were not going to survive.I was lost in thought and could only pray about it because my partner and I were not seeing eye to eye on this topic.
It’s super important to communicate your thoughts on all outcomes of IVF before hand. It helps with understanding what both of your needs are in the relationship. Of course I am very vocal and I had my reasons for every possible outcome that could play out while doing this treatment. So I was a little taken back that I was not being supported regarding not moving forward with a potential second IVF cycle. At the end of the day it’s my body and when and if I am ready again I will let you know. And today is not the day.
All we could do was wait until are 5-6 days were up and for me that’s where my head was at. During that time I kept very busy and focused on projects and things that I had lined up. I told my partner he should do the same. The more thoughts in your head regarding this will drive you mad or in a depressed state. And if we are truly committed to having a child we need to be able to mentally be prepared for the good and bad that comes our way in life.
So I enjoyed every aspect of my life during those days. I thanked god for every precious moment because no matter what I know that he has blessed me and that no matter I will always be blessed. And with that I knew that I was going to be alright
Stay tuned for Day 20 Embryo Results